You Can Start Where You Are

 

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This is something I often struggle with: That I can’t go back and change the beginning–getting a painful and debilitating chronic illness when I was 18. Or any other “beginnings” in my life that I wish I could change. But! C.S. Lewis reminds me that all is not lost and I do have the power to try to change those bad beginnings into something positive and good, no matter where I am in my life.

It’s never too late to start again, right?

Lose It!

Great news! I had an appointment at my pain clinic this morning and according to their scale, I’ve lost two pounds in the last week/week and a half. YES! As you probably already know, I’ve been trying so hard to lose weight AND while still taking prednisone, which often feels impossible. So this really made my day today! I also just started tracking my food and calories again (Tuesday), but this time trying a new app on my phone–Lose It! I already think I like it better than Spark People, which is what I’ve used in the past.

So anyway, I’m ecstatically happy about losing these two little pounds. I’m ready, more than ready, to LOSE IT! A lot of it. :)

Good Morning

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12.13.17 – Fridley, Minnesota

It was snowing heavily on my way to work this morning, yet despite the traffic and stress and headaches it caused, it was really beautiful.

Peace, beauty, relief, contentment–they’re not so hard to find sometimes, I think.

Just Say No?

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Self-portrait, circa 2012

If only it were that easy to “just say no” to bread, pasta, bagels, donuts, pastries, sweets, SUGAR–all of the delicious carbs that steroid medication (prednisone) makes you crave.

If only I could “just say no” to my doctor when he advises that I increase my prednisone dosage (once again) to help get a flare-up under control.

The prednisone/steroid battle is a tough one, as many of you already know, because despite its nasty side effects, it’s hard to say “no” to a treatment that is very effective and fast at reducing inflammation and pain.

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To-Feel

 

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I have so many “To-Do” lists yet I always feel unorganized, overwhelmed, frustrated, and disappointed. Maybe it’s time I start making some new lists?

TO-FEEL:

  1. Healthy
  2. Hopeful
  3. Peaceful
  4. Grateful
  5. Creative
  6. Inspired
  7. Excited
  8. Content
  9. Relaxed
  10. Loving