February 1, 2013
So I stayed up all night working on this photo project, which is crazy, but I couldn’t sleep anyway. As you may (or may not) know, one of my passions in life is photography. The physical demands of it are often very difficult due to my RA (carrying heavy equipment, standing on my feet for hours), but I still have the drive and desire to keep doing it, for some reason. Anyway, there is a cool thing going on through the local public television station here, TPT (Twin Cities Public Television), called Capture Minnesota. And today is the deadline to enter photos of Minnesota for the Capture Minnesota II photo book. I’ve been digging around in my computer all night trying to find some of the best photos I’ve taken of Minnesota over the last couple years. I think I found some good ones, so if you feel moved to do so, please vote for them. I’d really appreciate it!
October 14, 2012
Fall is here! It’s my favorite time of year yet I feel like I haven’t really been enjoying it that much. Why not? A sudden “episode” of anxiety has seemingly come out of nowhere and hit me like a truck running over my head at 80 mph. Well, okay I guess that analogy isn’t that great because if a truck really ran over my head I would be dead right now and I’m obviously alive. But this anxiety has been really debilitating and I haven’t been living life as I should because of it. I suppose realizing that my dreaded birthday is coming up is what triggered the anxiety attack. I started thinking about my age and where I am in life and what I’ve done and more about what I haven’t done (marriage, kids, grad school, career, my art, moving abroad again, etc). And that’s been really worrying and upsetting me. I know I’ve been beating myself up, unfairly, and way too harshly. But despite my efforts to be rational and chilled-out about things, the same obsessive worries and fears and regrets keep going round in circles in my head. But I think that once I start to really make progress and improvements in at least one area of my life, these feelings will get better and go away. God, I hope so. Regret is such a miserable, self-loathsome, sickening feeling. I’ve struggled enough with it already over the years and I thought I had finally let go of some things until this latest crippling bout of it. I know regret is extremely counter-productive because you can’t go back and change things. Looking back, dwelling, getting sentimental and nostalgic to the point of extreme sadness – this has always been a problem of mine since I was a kid, really. How do you stop thinking this way? If anybody has any good tips, please feel free to share them. I’m so tired of it.
Anyway, in other good news, I just started a new photography blog – http://aclundberg.blogspot.com. I’m really happy with how it’s looking so far. Hopefully as I add more posts it will start to look more professional and will help me land some jobs or something. But despite using it as a job tool, I’ve just been having a lot of fun working on it.
August 10, 2011
I just got back from taking a short bike ride, about 2 miles, which felt really great. Because the weather here has been so disgustingly hot and humid for the past month or so, I’ve been neglecting riding my bike (among other things). Maybe that’s a bit lazy of me, but if you ask anybody who lives in the Twin Cities area they’ll agree that lately it’s just been too damn hot to do anything. This evening I photographed the last Bike Library orientation of the season too, which maybe helped put me in the mood to bust out my own bike again. Sibley Depot’s Bike Library Program has been a lot of fun to be involved with and I’m very impressed with the work they’ve been doing in the St. Paul and Minneapolis communities.
In other news, while I’m still unemployed, I have been trying to keep busy working on my own stuff. I finally bought an Internet domain and web host and started building my own photography website/online portfolio. It’s pretty basic and minimalist, but that’s the look I’m going for, I think. Maybe someday in the future I’ll be able to make it fancier but for now I think it will work out fine. I hope to use it as a reference for potential employers and job opportunities.
Here’s the link: www.aclundberg.com.
Feel free to let me know what you think and if you have any web design tips or advice!
Okay, I’m really tired yet hyper-wired on caffeine. I will give up coffee again tomorrow, I promise. Or the day after tomorrow.
Bikes are awesome. ♥
Sibley Bike Depot: www.sibleybikedepot.org