I just posted this all over my social media pages yesterday because I love it! Having RA and an invisible illness, this statement really resonates with me. I often struggle with feeling “lazy” (and then guilty) just trying to make it through each day living with this exhausting disease. I’m NOT lazy, though. None of us are. We’re doing the best we can while living with constant, debilitating pain. That should be enough.
I just started a new FT job last week working in the billing department for a non-profit. It’s a huge relief to be able to quit my previous job of over a year (call center/debt collections), however I have to say I’m having some trouble adjusting to this 40 hour week schedule. I’ve been incredibly exhausted all week – moreso than usual. I’m a little worried about it, because my fatigue seems so extreme and maybe not normal? I don’t know what’s going on. I’m hoping I’m just being my usual hypochondriac-self and worrying for nothing. The new job has also been stressful due to the fact that I have no medical billing experience, so there is a lot to learn. I really hope that this wave of fatigue gets better as I get more used to working FT again and feel more comfortable with the work I’m doing. This weekend I basically did nothing, except sleep and take care of a few small errands. I was pretty disappointed that I wound up staying in last night instead of going to a friend’s birthday get-together. I’ve been dying for some social interaction lately, but last night I wound up feeling so wrecked and tired I couldn’t make myself get ready to go out. So yeah…I really hope my energy level picks up here soon. I just got my labs done and I’m not anemic (although my iron isn’t super high either – it’s at a 12). I could lie down right now and take another nap but I’m trying to make myself actually get something done this weekend.
In arthritis news – both of my knees are still bothering me and I’m back on prednisone for the last two weeks. This is very weird and I’ve never dealt with BOTH of my knees feeling like this before. Once again, I have no idea what’s going on, but I hope the pain goes away soon.
Today the weather is beautiful. I should go sit outside and read (but I’ll probably fall asleep!).