Weight of the world
February 22, 2008
Once again time flew by and I haven’t written in here for a while. Apologies again to my maybe two readers (ha ha).
For the past month+ I’ve been trying very hard to improve my health and lose weight. I began an aquatic whole-body conditioning class that meets twice a week (I wrote about this once before but deleted my post in embarrassment because my instructor found this blog and told me about it at class one week. I’ll probably repost it sometime soon once I stop acting like a baby). I also started this “Colorful Choices” program through work that helps a person eat more fruits and vegetables, as well as giving up all soda and drinking a lot of water. I’ve been doing pretty well with these things, yet I’m growing more and more frustrated because I’m not seeing ANY results – not pounds-wise or in clothing fit. What is the DEAL? Do I have to run miles each day and starve myself to lose even a tiny bit of weight? I’m so unbelievably sick of this weird weight gain (from the last 5 years) that never goes away despite my efforts. I just want to be my “normal” self, 25-30 lbs lighter, which isn’t even “skinny.” I’m working hard yet the flab is hanging around (literally).
So, since I’ve been suspicious of this weight gain for years, yet my doctors all tell me that it’s just that I’m “getting older,” (not from my arthritis medications) I’ve decided to keep a food diary for two weeks, writing down everything I eat and the calories. If I still don’t lose weight with my seemingly low caloric intake (yesterday was about 1,400 calories) plus increased exercise, I’m going to wave this diary in my doctor’s face and say, “Here’s the proof! Can you please help me now?”
I hate keeping the food diary, by the way. Thinking about what I’m eating constantly makes me a little insane. I’m crazy enough without having to add food anxiety to it. If anybody out there has any thoughts or good advice on this, please feel free to comment!
I’m starving…snack time.