February 13, 2012
Monday morning. I’m still trying to taper down on the prednisone – at 10 mg now. My ankles feel a little better, surprisingly. I hope this isn’t just a fluke. Too many pills; no wonder I always feel like throwing up in the morning. I suppose I should try to spread out taking them but then I’d probably forget. I’ve started taking plaquenil again too. I had kind of “decided” on my own to stop taking it. Well, it was mostly laziness and forgetfulness that decided for me. I’m determined to get these ankles better so I can take a trip in June. If that means choking down all of these pills then I’ll do it.
February 7, 2012
Good news! I passed my class at KFAI last night. Well, I’m pretty sure I passed it. After I completed the practical portion, my teacher said I passed as long as I pass the written part (which I think I did). Backing up, for the last five weeks I’ve been taking a board certification class at a community radio station here in Minneapolis. During the class we learned how to use the equipment in the studio and run the board so that we can engineer radio shows if we get board certified. It’s been a really fun class, I’ve met some very nice people and I’m excited to start working on some shows. And who knows, maybe someday I’ll even end up with my own show there.
KFAI is volunteer-run and is made up of a great mix of creative, diverse people and shows, which I find impressive. Whatever happens, I’m just really happy that I completed the class and that I’m starting to make some real efforts at doing things in life that I’m actually interested in. I’ve neglected this for far too long, for some reason. It also feels good to actually finish something. Usually I’m the queen of starting projects and then becoming distracted and forgetting about them. Not this time! And I’m excited to see what comes my way next – at KFAI, with photography stuff, writing, and whatever else I want to try. It’s hard when I’m in considerable pain most days, lethargic, cranky, depressed – but I know I have to keep moving forward. This little class at KFAI has been good inspiration for that. I want to feel like a living human being again and not just some robotic lump of flesh that swallows pills and goes to doctor appointments.
Check out KFAI online: www.kfai.org
November 29, 2011
I had my Remicade infusion yesterday and it went fine, as usual. And it was boring, as usual. There was a young girl in the “infusion bay” next to me who was watching TV and had Ru Paul’s reality drag show blaring. So annoying. There was a young guy in another bay blabbing really loudly too, which was also getting on my nerves. If I have to sit hooked up to an I.V. for three hours I’d prefer it to be quiet, but eh, what can you do? I had planned to read a lot more of my book but instead wasted a lot of time playing with my new iPhone. So addictive! That’s all I have to report, really. I’m glad the infusion is done until the next one in eight weeks. Then I’ll have to start fighting with my insurance company and deal with the stress of getting financial assistance for the year. My insurance “starts over” January 1st AKA turns to crap. I know I shouldn’t complain though because at least I have insurance. I can’t imagine what it must be like for people who have RA or other chronic illnesses who can’t afford insurance. It’s criminal, really. I end up paying a ton in out-of-pocket costs, but I’d be so far in debt if I didn’t have any insurance.
Ah, what else is new? I drove again tonight for a bit. Exciting! I also have not taken any pain medications today, although I might have to pop a Percocet before bed. Ok, I’m going to go watch a movie or something.
November 26, 2011
Sorry I’ve taken so long to post again. I’ve been busy, ah, lying around being bored and feeling pathetic, I guess. Actually it’s been almost four weeks since the surgery and my ankle does feel better, which is wonderful. I drove for the first time today which was very exciting (it really was). I only drove a short distance though so I’m not sure how far I can go without it hurting too much. I don’t want to aggravate it and set myself back, of course. I’m dying to get out of the house though!
November 10, 2011
My ankle hurts a lot and I’m still lying around all day resting it, going crazy from boredom. I’m actually waiting for a call back from my doctor’s office. My ankle seems to have gotten worse and more painful over the weekend and I’m wondering if that’s normal. Basically I can’t put any weight on it unless I’m taking the pain meds. When I first wake up in the morning and try to stand on it, it’s so sore and painful. Torture. I hope this is normal for it being Day 10 after surgery. I really don’t want to have to go into the clinic until my scheduled two-week appointment next Tuesday. But really, I’m just worried that something is wrong. I can’t remember it hurting this much last time, five years ago. However I probably blocked a lot of that out of my memory. I hope my doctor’s assistant calls me back soon. HYPOCHONDRIA!
In other news, it was my birthday on Monday. It was a pretty nice day despite being an invalid. My sister took me to a movie during the afternoon – The Rum Diary. Then I went out to eat with the family. It was also my dad’s birthday on Monday so we were celebrating with him as well. My good friend Kenneth in Dublin sent me a really nice birthday gift that arrived yesterday. He gave me this cool graphic-design kitchen towel thing from The Cake Cafe in Dublin. He also sent me a bunch of really awesome postcards of Berlin during the Cold War era. I love that kind of thing and I spent the day messing around taking some photos of the postcards. Oh yeah, and he also gave me these delicious mint chocolate biscuit things. Embarrassingly, I admit that I ate them all in one sitting. Well hey, what else am I supposed to do? They were really good.
If you want to see more photos of the postcards and other random stuff I posted recently, check out my Flickr page – http://www.flickr.com/photos/meinherz
November 1, 2011
Recovery right now includes:
-Bag of ice
-Netflix DVD: Faraway, So Close! (1993)
-Books: Down and Out in Paris and London by George Orwell; Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell
-Magazine: current issue of Newsweek
-Crochet and knitting projects
November 1, 2011
My surgery went well yesterday and I’m feeling pretty good recovering today. In addition to the general anesthesia I was given, the anesthesiologist also gave me a localized nerve block for my right ankle/foot, which meant it was basically paralyzed for 24 hours. So, needless to say, I didn’t feel much pain at all yesterday after the surgery. This morning I could wiggle my toes again and the feeling in my foot is starting to creep back. My ankle is starting to hurt now, too. I’m drugged up on some percocet and vistaril, which is pretty nice, I must say. However I’m already bored just lying around on the couch with my foot up. Trying to walk at all is a huge challenge – especially with cumbersome crutches I can’t really seem to get the hang of. I will also have to wear this attractive giant black boot for at least two weeks, depending on how fast my ankle heals. This means I can’t drive until I can wear a normal shoe again. Hopefully I can bribe friends to pick me up and help me escape from the house during the next few weeks.
Good news – after I came out of surgery my doctor/surgeon went to speak with my parents about the operation. He said that the scope showed that my ankle joint is not damaged, so this is really great. He also said he removed scar tissue and damaged/inflamed tissue that was from the RA. I wish I had been able to talk to him myself, like last time, but maybe he figured I was too out of it from the anesthesia. I might call the doctor’s office tomorrow or something to see if I can speak with him.
So that’s the surgery news. I’m glad it’s over. And I really hope it works this time and that removing all of that inflamed crap will cut down on my pain, swelling and immobility. I just want to have a normal ankle again.
October 30, 2011
My ankle surgery is tomorrow morning. I’m trying to not think about it too much, but I am really nervous. I can’t wait until it’s over. Surgery is scheduled for 9:50 and I have to check in by 7:50. The procedure should take about an hour and I will go home sometime later tomorrow. I’m sure everything will be fine, but it just freaks me out thinking about it – thinking about being put under and the doctor scraping around inside my ankle. Ick.
Prayers, good thoughts, healing vibes, etc. are very welcome!
October 13, 2011
So I went to one of the Massage Envy spas last night for their Arthritis Foundation deal. It was an…uh…interesting experience. Basically, my massage therapist was a weirdo girl who tried to chat me up during the massage while I was lying face down shirtless and already feeling a bit uncomfortable. Practically straight away she asked me in a creepy voice, “So what do you like to do for fun?” Huh? NOTHING. DO NOT TALK TO ME DURING MASSAGE, PLEASE. Throughout the rest of the hour she proceeded to tell me about how she thinks about what it would be like if her dad was a cat and that she has psychic abilities. Regarding the latter, of course I couldn’t resist asking (still lying face down while she pummeled my back and called me “Dear”) – Ok, so what do you sense about me and my “energy?” She replied, “Your right side is full of work stress and…FEAR.” Uh ok. She went on, “Your left side has some…anger. Is there trouble with your mom?” What? No. She said, “I sense an older, female energy in there.” Well I’m certainly mad at plenty of people these days but my mother is not one of them. And I’m pretty sure she’s not in my left shoulder. Maybe it’s Grandma? Er, okay, thank you, Creepy Girl, glad I asked.
I think I walked out of there more tense than when I walked in.
October 11, 2011
A lot of things have been happening regarding my RA, and well, with everything really. I’m having surgery on my right ankle again on October 31st (I hope my surgeon doesn’t play any “tricks” on me in the operating room). It’s the same surgery I had five years ago – the doctor is going to scope my ankle to try to see what’s going on in there. Like last time, I have a feeling that he’ll also end up removing inflamed synovial tissue. The frustrating thing about my ankles, the right one in particular, is that nothing ever shows up on the MRIs and X-ray scans yet I continue to have debilitating pain and swelling. As the surgery date gets closer, I’m starting to get more nervous and scared, but I just hope the surgery is more of a success than it was last time. I had my pre-op physical yesterday and I’m good to go. Whoohoo! Happy Halloween, eh?